This year has been a hard one.
👬The boys entering year 2 and year 4 of their little lives has required much more patience, understanding and energy. I tried going back to work only to realize that I wasn’t ready. I needed to be home with my babies. BUT, we kept the boys in school 2 times a week. We endured 3 grueling months of back to back sickness building their immune systems. I don’t think I slept for those 3 months.
💰With so much financial stress from the last few years, we were forced to walk through bankruptcy in February. It was not a proud moment, but it was a huge elephant off our backs. We let go, and were able to finally breathe for the first time.
🧰 We decided to go for it (since we had nothing to lose) and start a family business, E320 Services, LLC. Specializing in appliance and A/C repair. God has been so good to us, bringing Boris work, which has allowed me to stay home and figure out my purpose and vision for my own life. The search keeps bringing me back to my writing. We will see where 2020 takes me.
😡Boris and I still struggled with a lot of anger and resentment from the past few years. I had to start looking in the mirror, pursuing healing and finding freedom on my own. Seeking counseling and coming to terms with my need for mild meds to help with PTSD and anxiety. Boris also chose us… and continued his own journey of healing.
👨🏻🦳 Then Dad got sick. And just like that… he was gone. Thank goodness I had the help of anti-anxiety meds. I battled stress hives for a couple of months, but overall, it was a beautiful process of restoration and mourning all wrapped up into one heartbreaking and joyous emotion. My daddy is where I long to be now. Perfect and 100% happy.
💕And now… through it all… we have come to a place of freedom and friendship. Something about dad’s death healed a part of me that I never knew was broken. I was able to let go. I was able to move on. I was able to forgive and begin to like my husband. To see him someone I could laugh and cry with. Someone I could call my best friend.
💸 And finally, to bring things full circle and bring even more restoration… the inheritance that dad left us, allowed us to pay off our vehicles and school loans, schedule my surgery to fix my 6.5” abdominal separation from pregnancy 🤰 and take this much needed time alone with my new best friend. Celebrating all that God has done.
🚢 So today, we stepped onto the ship and exhaled. Our bodies shut down, probably knowing that for the first time ever… we had nothing to worry about. I slept for 4 hours and didn’t dress up for dinner. I threw on some mascara and fushia lipstick 💄 and that was enough.
🙏🏼 Thank you everyone for all your love, support and prayers. You have no idea how much we need this. So many victories to celebrate. This week… I’m excited to say… is all about love, all about adventure, and all about us. My husband deserves it. I deserve it. We will return to our regularly schedule life next week. For now… bring on the Congo line! 💃🏼🕺🏼
Dear Miss Mary 