After this weekend, I will have no income. My last weekend with Revolve is very bittersweet because I am so overjoyed at the idea of not having to travel and actually having all 7 days a week to work on this magazine… this mission. Well, the time also comes with a price. Yes I do have odd jobs here and there. I am an independent contractor for Destination Planning (helping with events around the city) and also work for Bob Knight Photo (during grad season only) But that’s not steady work… and I have been living without health insurance since I left my career as a financial advisor early last year. Talk about trusting God!!

So, here it is… the night before my last weekend of paying work… just got home from our “College Life” service (where my presence is technically illegal since I’m wayyy too old for it!), but God really spoke to me tonight. Pastor John Wyatt talked about staying in the shadows and letting God take the spotlight. Meaning, not to get caught up in what we are doing and taking the attention off of the miracles He is performing behind the scenes to make it happen. Whoa… totally true. Remaining humble is the secret to success… success with God, with the world, with the vision He has given. Matthew 23:12 says this: “Whoever makes himself great will be made humble. Whoever makes himself humble will be made great.”

I know that one day I will be a walking testimony for His amazing power, grace & love. I am feeling his peace and his strength right now… writing this… realizing that I’m not completely freaking out about my financial situation… and trusting in the fact that He has provided for me since I left my career… so what makes me think He will abandon me now? Now that I am at the very point where this “vision” will become a reality!! It is beyond me (I guess that’s how it works) how God seems to place the right people at the right moment in my life… whether it is a friend to pray for me, a Word that is spoken, a random stranger that heard about my magazine and wants to help… beyond me. BEYOND my understanding and awareness. So here it is… the “super” that needs to happen beyond my “natural”…

1. We have 2 weeks to finish the layout of the magazine so we can send it to the printers in time for the launch party.

2. We need an answer from the guy who will hopefully print the magazine for us at no cost (or so I’m hoping)… by… well… 2 weeks! Otherwise, we have the magazine and no money to print it. We have raised about $1000 of the $10,000 that we needed to do it all on our own so supernatural stuff definitely has to happen a this point.

3. I am waiting to hear an answer from my sister from her lawyer friend that is a Christian that MAY be able to help me with our 501C3 paperwork and file our taxes for us… pro-bono (no charge)!

4. I met someone in Denver that may be able to help us with Grant money so I sent her some info on our mission and we are waiting to hear what the board says. If we don’t get it, she still wants to help us find grant money in other places… amazing!

5. I have been talking to Jason Dunn (from Hawk Nelson) about the magazine (randomly while we’re on tour) and he wanted to know why I haven’t asked him to do an article! Well besides the fact that I didn’t want to cross any “boundaries” with work, I just know how busy they are right now. Well, he wants to maybe have lunch this weekend after the show so that I can interview him for our “CenterStage” section. Pretty crazy… he also wants to come do a show for us here in JAX, but I heard his manager may be a bit difficult to get a hold of. He gave me her info and I’ve already left her a message about getting them to perform at Murray Hill in June for our next event. We’ll see if God really makes that happen!

6. Murray Hill holds 700 people…. I have printed 1000 promo cards to hand out… we are starting to promote this launch party on March 28th like crazy and are hoping to get youth groups from other churches to attend as well…. we’ll see if God really brings us the youth that we need to not only make a good impression on the owners of Murray Hill Theatre, but to really catapult the success of this publication and impact hundreds of teens! I’m hoping to PACK THE HOUSE!

7. Will this really work? This vision? I can only do so much… where will we get the money to publish every month? Where will I get the money to pay rent, bills, food, gas, health insurance? How can I expect so many people on my teem to keep fighting the enemy’s attacks in their own lives and, without any compensation, keep taking steps forward with me? God, will this really happen? Will we spread this publication, this mission for a “community culture” of youth that serve and transform their own city, to other cities across the world? Will people really READ this? Come to our events? Participate in our youth outreaches??

God’s answer is YES… to all of these… I know because he has given me the calm in my spirit… the BOLDNESS in my voice… the hunger in my belly… the TRUST in my heart… to live fearlessly, lovingly, peacefully, BY FAITH ALONE!